Equals
Let me tell you what haunts me.
I am scared that my trust in this one person will be completely misplaced. I promised to forgive, but I am unable to forget, and that is because I am afraid that there hasn't been change. I know that change is a slow process, and that I should then give encouragement. But signs hint otherwise.
The person has been known to lie. That person is good at self-deceit; and thus experience of that person is one of the reasons I want never to deceive myself so badly. If I cannot acknowledge that I need to learn, I will not ever learn. If I cannot acknowledge that I am weak, I will not become stronger. And that person doesn't understand the wreckage of people they are making around them.
I am scared that I myself may fail. But I need to have courage to show my weaknesses in front of others, so that they can help me and keep me accountable. I need to show how much I need people to simply be with and exist with. God himself declared it was not good for man to be alone, even with him around, even in Eden.
I need people to help me go through life. And for now, that is one truth I will admit. Do not cling to your pride, because you have pride in small things only.
I am scared that my trust in this one person will be completely misplaced. I promised to forgive, but I am unable to forget, and that is because I am afraid that there hasn't been change. I know that change is a slow process, and that I should then give encouragement. But signs hint otherwise.
The person has been known to lie. That person is good at self-deceit; and thus experience of that person is one of the reasons I want never to deceive myself so badly. If I cannot acknowledge that I need to learn, I will not ever learn. If I cannot acknowledge that I am weak, I will not become stronger. And that person doesn't understand the wreckage of people they are making around them.
I am scared that I myself may fail. But I need to have courage to show my weaknesses in front of others, so that they can help me and keep me accountable. I need to show how much I need people to simply be with and exist with. God himself declared it was not good for man to be alone, even with him around, even in Eden.
I need people to help me go through life. And for now, that is one truth I will admit. Do not cling to your pride, because you have pride in small things only.
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